If you’re a single parent struggling and just getting by – I want you to know, they don’t care. If your apartment is small, and your checking account is two-digits – they don’t care. If your car has three hubcaps and makes that screeching noise because you need a new fan belt – they don’t …
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Those Intrusive Thoughts Again
I can’t stop worrying about my kids. I am constantly terrified that something bad will happen to one of them – and it eats away at my ability to function and maintain a consistent thought process. My oldest daughter is going in for ACL surgery tomorrow – and since I found out she needed surgery, …
Letters to Lila #10 (You Now Are Your Own)
Dear Lila, I just want to start by saying how much I love you. It has been nearly 16-years since you were born – and sometimes I brag that I was the first to hold you at the hospital – but really, your mother held you for 9-months prior. I am ok with being second …
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The Cost of Integrity
I want my children to be leaders and to not be afraid of standing up for what they believe is right. I also want them to know this can come at a great cost in the short-term – but in the long-term it will provide the opportunity to exist in this world without internal conflict. …
Dorm – Circa 2004
I know what you said. Always the last to know how you feel, inside. I know what you did. Your eyes are where the truth hides. Where does love reside? I have asked myself this one-thousand times. Again, it’s time to say goodbye. But this time, you won’t see me cry.
Letters to Lila #9 (Bees)
9/30/2024 Dear Lila, Transitions. I know a lot has been going on lately – but I want to remind you of something. Maybe it will help ease the pressure you’re experiencing with AP World History, and make you feel better about recently hurting your knee. I know you’re having a tough time lately. The silence …
Your Imprint
You seem so distant, I just want to listen, Can you tell me how you truly feel? It’s hard to stay resilient, For 15-years, I built it, None of this feels real. Your ghost lay where you once did, I keep looking over to see you, kid, But, you’re not here, And, it’s weird. Please …
The Pain of One-Thousand Needles
After nearly 15-years of not communicating with my sister – we are speaking again. I mentioned this in previous posts – but I was estranged from my older sister, Michelle, for many years due to her substance abuse issues. I recall from a young age (11 – and she was 13) seeing my sister unravel …
California – Where Progressive Policies Destroyed Once Thriving Communities
I moved to San Jose, California, in 2005. I was fresh out of college – filled with 100% idealism and very little life experience. I can honestly say, in hindsight, that “ignorance is bliss.” I’d much rather be young and dumb then older and informed. I remember voting for Al Gore and Barack Obama – …
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Deep, Dark, Silent and Soothing
I believe that I was an Orca in a past life. Part of a pod, roaming the seven seas (or some of them) – protecting, serving and nourishing family members. Staying close to each-other because the ocean is ruthless and that gives us our best chance to survive. I believe this because I have recurring …
To My Kids - The Thoughts of Your Father 